Fitness Class - Reflection and Review

Wow, so the blog summative is finally coming to a close. This post is going to be a personal reflection of the class. Next semester I'm definitely going to miss fitness. At first I was nervous for this class but the experience was so worth it!

It really was a roller-coaster (this whole year has been, actually). I was having a lot of difficulty dealing with some anxiety from my emetophobia at the beginning of the year and I'm only just starting to come out of that. It effected my experience in class more than anything else. I would always be nervous of class because I was afraid of working too hard and throwing up. It never happened, though, and as the course went on I started to lose most of the worry I had. I do believe that the exposure to the possibility of throwing up and never having to helped me realize that it was unlikely, and I learned ways to make the chance even smaller.  

At first, in class I felt shy and awkward. That was because I was (and still am) at least a little awkward. But to be honest, I felt like nothing compared to the other people in the class. I know this is "Personal Fitness" but I think its hard for anyone to avoid comparing themselves subconsciously to others. I mean, come on, there I was in a class full of beautiful people as my lanky and uncoordinated self. I just didn't feel like I fit in at first, but within the first week or two I met a few friends and grew more comfortable. Now I feel like I blend in a bit more with the rest of the class, which is really good. There are a lot of people that I respect and aspire to be like eventually; people who are strong and confident and beautiful. It makes me happy to be in a class with people like this, and it encourages me to keep trying.

I've grown a lot since the beginning of this year. I used to hate circuits and lifting weights, but now I love those things. I used to just think of how tired and gross I felt afterwards and the entire workout would consist of me dreading that feeling. Now I don't care about what I feel like afterwards. I sort of learned to like it, actually. The endorphins and the heavy feeling you get after a good workout; the kind of workout that makes you feel good about yourself. I really love it. I even like being a little sore the next day because it lets me know I did a good job and that next time I'll be stronger.

I've also noticed physical results from this class. It makes me so happy that everything has paid off! I'm not made of twigs anymore: I actually have some muscles! But honestly, I feel great about myself now. I feel like I have something to be proud of. I can stand taller, and not worry about people thinking I'm weak because I know I'm not. I promise I'll continue to work out at home and forever because I really don't want to lose this.

Although there were times at the beginning of the year when I would have to remind myself of my goals just to get myself not to drop the class, I would recommend fitness class to anyone, especially if they are looking to become something better. My favourite part about the course was the enthusiasm and encouragement that went on in the class. Whenever Ms. Port or someone else said I was doing a good job, it meant a lot to me. It let me know that not only was I doing something right and that I wasn't about to embarrass myself, but also that they had noticed. Letting someone know when they're doing well helps a lot more than people imagine. It really helped me push myself harder than I th
ink I would have otherwise.

In conclusion, I want to thank Ms. Port and everyone in the class for creating such a wonderful atmosphere to change myself into someone I'm proud of being. The semester is almost over and I won't have much more time left to work out with you guys, but I just want you all to know I think you are wonderful and I hope you get as much out of fitness class as I have. :D